Not Happy

So I gained weight. I know, right! That's is so not awesome. Remember in Pilgrims Progress how Christian was on a good journey trying to accomplish a good thing, but bad things kept happening ? I feel ya Christian.

BUT instead of throwing myself at the mercy of messrs. Ben & Jerry, I will soldier on! Today I went shopping, and I did good. I think. I am trying anyhow. I bought chicken breast patties for sandwiches, sandwich thins bread ( 100 calories), Tomato, lettuce, Low fat cheese, and Special K crackers ( eww, sooo gross, Whaaaaaahhh, I thought I was going to choke to death and die!) and salsa. For the kids I bought A Gordita kit, and I am going to have Blueberry morning cereal with skim milk instead when they have it. I love Blueberry morning, that stuff rocks.

Oh and when my husband stopped at Starbucks to surprise me this morning, I ordered a frappuccino light-hold the whip. So, making some progress here. Maybe losing weight is like quitting smoking, it super sucks while you are fighting the good fight, but it is a year later, you can't remember why you ever did something so dumb? When I quit smoking I had all these horrible little "flare ups" where I really suffered, I mean I felt horribly ill, irritable, craving like crazy, it was like fighting a demon.
I know we are only talking about a little diet and exercise here, but this is not easy, I feel like I am fighting a demon.

So today I have eaten
blueberry morning cereal with skim milk
4 slices of low fat cheese, with about 10 special k crackers
2 16 oz glasses of water
1 Frappuccino light, no whip cream.

For dinner I am planning the chicken sandwiches, and I have some watermelon for my night time snack. Danny nurses a ton, so I get pretty hungry around midnight, that's where the watermelon comes in.

I can do this. Right?